Looking back

A few days ago we handed in our keys for our Sunnyside apartment. After Julian and the landlord left I had a few moments by myself in the apartment. I slowed down and looked around.

It's a surreal feeling walking around a place you've done so thousands of times knowing it's the last time. These walls held my pictures I stared at every day. I woke up on a bed on that empty space for four years. I stared at my empty room, thinking of how much time I spent in here, definitely way too much. Thought of the Friday nights when I got some halal food from downstairs and watched a guilty pleasure show while chowing down sitting on my desk. It was comfort and safe. This place was home. Now it was over and all those memories are nobody's but mine. How would I remember this time of my life in 5 years? or 10 or 20? Feeling nostalgic, aching and longing for the past is the most lively feeling. I hope one day Sunnyside and this apartment is that feeling for me.